Lately my thoughts on what worship should look like have changed. In fact, they've changed to the point that I'm becoming increasingly dissatisfied with my own church's worship. It's not that the worship they do is wrong, it's just that I think it's not as good as it could be.
Some of this has come from a book I'm reading by Dawn (first name slips my mind right now) called
A Royal Waste of Time. The book is great at getting you to think about what worship is really about. It's also boring past p. 100...
Anyway, what are my beefs? Well, primarily I think that worship in our church has becoming man centered instead of God centered. It's hard to explain how I see this because it's bits here and there that drive this. The worship at my church is actually very well done musically. The musicians are top notch. The music is beautiful. Etc. But what kind of bothers me is that the focus is always front and center on the musicians. Not wrong. But the attention is not really directed
upwards at God. A soloa few weeks ago (did I mention this here?) sang "It's all about you, Jesus" - a beautiful chorus. But the IRONY was that as the soloistbegan singing, the lights dimmed for the congregation and the spotlight shone on the SINGER! Afterwards, the audience clapped...
Argggg.... No. This isn't "wrong" but it's not the way it should be. The problem is deeper than just this one song of course. It's the fact that 2 solos are sung every Sunday. It's the fact that few in the congregation sing or are encouraged through musical methods to sing. The band is good, but it feels like a performance, not a worship service. The music is too often centered on "me" or "I" and how God makes "me" feel.
Again, I don't think any of these are wrong in and of themselves, but it seems that there is a culture at my church that has grown to focus primarily on what "feels good" or is "applauded" rather than what fosters a lifestyle of worship within those who should be "worshippers."
Does this make sense? I feel a tad judgemental, but I also feel strongly on this. I'll probably comment more on this later, but I feel like a light has been turned on somewhere within me and I see more clearly than ever that I am created to worship God. And I also feel that my church is only skirting the edge of what authentic worship looks like.